anger, misery / you'll suffer unto me

[rone]

I'm tired of being angry.

I'm angry because of how the whole soccer team thing fell out.  I'm angry because of this Bucaram bullshit.  I'm angry because our government is just about as shameful as Ecuador's — and i'm normally one who scoffs at bleeding-heart liberals who carry on about how 'ashamed' they are to be an American these days, but mother-FUCK!  Years of lies, obfuscations, misdirections, shamelessness, unaccountability, and manipulation from the democratically elected leaders of this country, the majority of which belong a political party that will not only not remove a clear and obvious criminal from their ranks (yes, Tom Cornholing DeLay, i'm talking about you), but actually aid and abet his immorality, all while the party in opposition is as ineffective as a sorority girl on GHB and the media watches the proceeding date rape like drunken frat brothers who think that maybe they should intervene, but damn, their bro is getting some action, maybe they oughta cheer him on!

Lastly, i'm angry at myself because i'm in a hell of a slump at work and in my creative efforts.  Anger used to sustain me in both, long ago, but i'm not young and single anymore (so did caffeine, i guess; no surprise there, i'm sure there's some connection).  Anger was what i turned to in college when i decided that being depressed wasn't good for me.  But i'm burned out.  I think that this is what i was trying to get at a few days ago.  I want to be at peace.  I want to not be angry anymore.  But how can i fucking help it when it feels that the world is truly conspiring against my inner peace?  Shutting myself out of the world is just security through obscurity, and i am not an island.

WE ARE ALL ONE PEOPLE, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.  QUIT FUCKING AROUND.

Comments

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

Looking at the politics thing, I find it hard to compare a government that gets overthrown on a random and frequent basis with a government that has never been overthrown (where never starts with the ratification of the Constitution).

There is no such comparison. Each event angers me purely on its own "merit".

Ditto the accusation of imperialists (by which I assume you mean the US and its cohorts) destroying Iraq with the implication that the US et al are no better than terrorists.

There is no such implication. Both imperialists and terrorists anger me purely on their own "merit".

It seems like your anger is undifferentiated, like everything is an 11 and there are no gradations. I wonder if it's not that anger is so much a problem as that right now, it's overwhelming you and beating you soundly about the head and shoulders.

That is precisely what i'm saying.

I need to see you guys soon, especially in light of the events you two survived last week.