anger, misery / you'll suffer unto me

[rone]

I'm tired of being angry.

I'm angry because of how the whole soccer team thing fell out.  I'm angry because of this Bucaram bullshit.  I'm angry because our government is just about as shameful as Ecuador's — and i'm normally one who scoffs at bleeding-heart liberals who carry on about how 'ashamed' they are to be an American these days, but mother-FUCK!  Years of lies, obfuscations, misdirections, shamelessness, unaccountability, and manipulation from the democratically elected leaders of this country, the majority of which belong a political party that will not only not remove a clear and obvious criminal from their ranks (yes, Tom Cornholing DeLay, i'm talking about you), but actually aid and abet his immorality, all while the party in opposition is as ineffective as a sorority girl on GHB and the media watches the proceeding date rape like drunken frat brothers who think that maybe they should intervene, but damn, their bro is getting some action, maybe they oughta cheer him on!

Lastly, i'm angry at myself because i'm in a hell of a slump at work and in my creative efforts.  Anger used to sustain me in both, long ago, but i'm not young and single anymore (so did caffeine, i guess; no surprise there, i'm sure there's some connection).  Anger was what i turned to in college when i decided that being depressed wasn't good for me.  But i'm burned out.  I think that this is what i was trying to get at a few days ago.  I want to be at peace.  I want to not be angry anymore.  But how can i fucking help it when it feels that the world is truly conspiring against my inner peace?  Shutting myself out of the world is just security through obscurity, and i am not an island.

WE ARE ALL ONE PEOPLE, YOU FUCKING ASSHOLES.  QUIT FUCKING AROUND.

Comments

[therobbergirl.livejournal.com]

I'm angry because of how the whole soccer team thing fell out. I'm angry because of this Bucaram bullshit. I'm angry because our government is just about as shameful as Ecuador's

Perhaps it's a lack of direction that angers you? Looking at the politics thing, I find it hard to compare a government that gets overthrown on a random and frequent basis with a government that has never been overthrown (where never starts with the ratification of the Constitution). Ditto the accusation of imperialists (by which I assume you mean the US and its cohorts) destroying Iraq with the implication that the US et al are no better than terrorists. And at the top of the whole list is the soccer debacle.

It seems like your anger is undifferentiated, like everything is an 11 and there are no gradations. I wonder if it's not that anger is so much a problem as that right now, it's overwhelming you and beating you soundly about the head and shoulders.

Text isn't a good medium for this conversation. I hope what I've written comes out in a loving manner. Cozy family time chit chat would be better. palecur and I would like to make a better effort to do that. Casual stuff, even just an hour at Harbucks would be lovely and (I hope) not a stressful consumption of time. Take care, Ron, you are very much loved.

[insert fart joke]

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

Looking at the politics thing, I find it hard to compare a government that gets overthrown on a random and frequent basis with a government that has never been overthrown (where never starts with the ratification of the Constitution).

There is no such comparison. Each event angers me purely on its own "merit".

Ditto the accusation of imperialists (by which I assume you mean the US and its cohorts) destroying Iraq with the implication that the US et al are no better than terrorists.

There is no such implication. Both imperialists and terrorists anger me purely on their own "merit".

It seems like your anger is undifferentiated, like everything is an 11 and there are no gradations. I wonder if it's not that anger is so much a problem as that right now, it's overwhelming you and beating you soundly about the head and shoulders.

That is precisely what i'm saying.

I need to see you guys soon, especially in light of the events you two survived last week.

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

I've been thinking about this some more and i can see that it can come off as an comparison. But as you say, the US has a much better track record, which in my view makes DeLay's shenanigans even less tolerable. Representatives have found themselves forced to resign for much less. So what's going on? Does DeLay really have that much juice? It's a mystery to me.

[therobbergirl.livejournal.com]

I didn't mean to start a political discussion (I meant to point out the lack of differentiation and how nuances are appearing difficult) and I'm not equipped to tell you anything about DeLay -- I have a hard time condemning specific politicians in more than superficial ways because I have a hard time seeing any of them as more than crooks. Some of them are more/less corrupt than others and some of them happen to accomplish/ruin more than others in spite/because of their corruption.

I can say that there may be a different between someone like DeLay and Lott. Both Republicans, Trent Lott was never likable and the Republicans felt stuck with him in much the same way as the Democrats feel about Boxer. Lott probably didn't mean the implications of his dumbass statement about Thurmond (to paraphrase from memory: if only he'd won the presidency back then, we wouldn't have all these troubles now), but the Repubs had been looking for a way to dump him (he knows where the proverbial bodies are buried so there needed to be a big media splash event to do him in) and he gave it to them.

DeLay may not be annoying his party members the way that Lott did.

That's the best I can do. I don't have a good explanation.

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

I do think you have something there. The way Lott got dumped for saying something dumb but not something i'd call actionable (is that really a word? arggh) was sad. Maybe it's even a result of that that people are sticking by DeLay; after giving Lott up so quickly, they want to show their loyalty no matter what.

Politicians: are they vegetable or mineral?