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I'm a fucking rockstar.  So why aren't people interested in hiring my fine ass?  Well, i guess i have some holes in my skillset.  But i'm not about to buy a Brocade switch or a Hitachi SAN off eBay so i can improve myself.

I do think that i got soft at Macromedia and didn't expand my skills enough, especially the last 6½ months from ADBE takeover announcement to the bitter end.  Sure, nobody else was working then, but i let the malaise drag me down instead of taking care of myself.  If i'd let that happen in my relationship with Kim, she'd've divorced me.  Not that i'm saying i should put as much effort into my job as i do my marriage, but i shouldn't get comfortable and take it for granted, especially when the eventual outcome of the acquisition was evident to anyone with half a brain (but, alas, even i suffer from denial).

Anyway, i'll keep plugging away.  So far, the only places that have gotten back to me and haven't turned me down are Apple and TiVo.  More résumés have been dispatched.  I'll be getting my mojo back soon, i can feel it.