it's not the same

[rone]

Even though Kim's gone for a shorter period of time than i was in India, it feels completely different.  In India, i was a fish out of water, so my attitude was one of pure efficiency: take care of self, take care of work, tour if possible.  I missed home, but it wasn't something that depressed me.  But now i'm the one left at home, and i feel wholly adrift.  Going to work is perfunctory; i come home and i'm bereft.  I'm pathetic and it disgusts me.  And yet it's only for a couple of days more, so really, what the hell am i whining about?

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[pennyhill.livejournal.com]

Poor Rone! I send you soothing thoughts. Are the doggies not helping?

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

Nah, they're just as pathetic as i am.

[pennyhill.livejournal.com]

There's nothing to do but order a pizza and read a really good book or two. Perhaps reading the book TO the dogs. Is The Boy still around? Have him fry up some fat-and-chocolate treat for you. Or better yet ... is there some project that Kim really needs you to do? You could Surprise Her! None of this will make YOU feel any better while she is gone, but it would make HER feel better when she returns! wOOt!

[eagle]

You could do what I usually do when I'm feeling down and go get sucked into some pointless extended flamewar on Usenet. I don't think I'll know how to emotionally self-destruct properly any more once I stop reading news.groups.

(For more serious advice, I would second the reading thing, since that's what I love doing when I'm alone, but I thrive on being alone and would be taking this as an opportunity to have time to myself, thus indicating that you and I have rather different personalities and my advice probably wouldn't work for you. Which means that what you probably should do is go find some friends, go out to dinner, and find something to do with yourself after work that involves being around people.)

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

Heh. Although i'm very attached to the missus, i'm quite the loner, too. The idea of hanging out with friends without her is... weird. Hanging out with people online is enough social activity for me.

As i said elsewhere, i misplaced my brother's copy of McMaster Bujold's "The Hallowed Hunt" and since that was what i wanted to read next, i haven't really felt inclined to pick anything else up, with the exception of a couple of books which i read on the planes to and from India. And i just picked up a bunch of books from pobig, too. I'll have to find the damn book, or buy a copy and read it, just to get myself unstuck.

I find that i just can't do extended flamewars anymore. Too much negativity. Just eats me up.

[eagle]

Oh, well, in that case, yeah. Read. Or find some DVD collection that you were going to watch and never got around to. I'd probably find some video game to play that I bought a year ago and never opened.

I'd recommend good books I've read recently, but, well, that would mean recommending The Blue Place and Stay by Nicola Griffith, which are damn good books, particularly the second, but if read against a backdrop of loneliness might just leave you a sobbing wreck. So, y'know, still recommended if you feel like seriously wallowing, but possibly not the best approach to take. (Stay is the best book I've read this year, though, and possibly in the last few years.)

I think I used to be able to flame the crap out of someone and then walk away feeling righteous and not give it a second thought. I'm not sure; it's hard to remember that stuff accurately. If I did, I sure can't do it any more. At this point, engaging in flamewars about something that I actually care about is a quick rush of emotional righteousness followed by feeling exhausted, depressed, and angry at myself for days afterwards as I try to figure out how to extricate myself from the situation again.

Damn empathy shit really screws you up inside.

Buy a Leica camera

[mouseworks.livejournal.com]

Worked for me. The old screwmounts aren't that expensive. Call Tamarkin in NYC for what they have post-auction in III's.

More seriously, learn something to surprise Kim when she gets back. Or go shopping for something not that expensive but something you think she'd like.

My dad used to buy us little presents when he went to NYC on business. It's the reverse principle here -- and you can bore shop clerks in antique and used stores about her.

[2wanda.livejournal.com]

I'll be home soon baby!

Paul says this is weak sauce

[therobbergirl.livejournal.com]

You should draw some gridlines over a picture of her then replicate the contents of each grid box on a square piece of paper. Glue the pieces of paper to a large piece of butcher paper. Then cuddle it pathetically.

It won't help, but it will cause many of us to weep for you.

Re: Paul says this is weak sauce

[therobbergirl.livejournal.com]

Oh. Please take pictures. palecur wishes to create a symbol of your devotion.

[ronebofh.livejournal.com]

What if i glued the pieces of paper to a body pillow? That would totally be cuddleable! Then i'll dance with the pillow and tell the dogs, "Look, it's Mommy!" Then they will give me the Sad Look, the one that says, "Daddy's gone insane. Let's wait until he collapses and then eat him."

[therobbergirl.livejournal.com]

Well, you do need to feed the dogs.

But while 2wanda wouldn't mind if my idea got the entire internet to weep for you, she'd be quite peeved if I got you eaten by dogs.

U R In Lurv

[asienieizi.livejournal.com]

You could do what Himself does to keep out of trouble when I'm away. Clean the house from top to bottom with a toothbrush! He's a loner too, but with a tidy fetish.

[twillis.livejournal.com]

You know, I be she would really feel like you all missed her if she came home to find you and the dogs lying around in your boxers and bathrobes, surrounded by empty beer cans and wine boxes.

[eejitalmuppet.livejournal.com]

That's what soccer practice is for. Failing that, you could always go on a killing spree.